“Another Blank Page”

(sharing this older post…)

“Another Blank Page”    ~by Aixa Garcia 3-11-15

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Another blank page sits before me, I stare at it for quite a while.

The words are there, inside of me, dying to bring themselves forth but I resist, I hold back, in fear of what may be said. You see, I say tooo much sometimes, I share my heart, my thoughts, my gifts but they are not always understood. Though many confirm their helpfulness and how they have been touched in one way or another…others resist, afraid of the truth, afraid to feel, afraid to see within themselves. But even “I” resist what they may reveal…so much has already been said and sometimes I just don’t want to know. But the urge inside is much greater than me and eventually I have to give in. What is it that wants to be said? What is it that needs to be shared? If I hold back, it pains me with the thought of rejecting my gifts. But if I share, my heart is open, in the hands of the one who receives…or resists. I try to separate myself, the “human” self from feelings and emotions but it’s often difficult to do…as FEELING is part of how I receive…you see, I have a gift that Feels things, that goes deep within one’s soul, I can feel the pain in others, though they hide it behind a smile. I feel the doubt, the struggle, the pain that dwells in them deep. Maybe I feel too much but it’s part of who I am. How else could I help another? Is it so wrong to feel? To care? To give ones heart so deeply? Maybe I ask too much, maybe I expect even more. But how does one hold back from something that is in essence, out of our control? We are all here for a reason, with a purpose and a mission to fulfill. I am currently walking my journey and still learning along the way. I fall often as the path isn’t always clear but Divinity picks me up and guides me along the way. I struggle as others do and fight against adversity because we very well know…where there’s a purpose, there will always be adversity. My heart has oftentimes been broken, my world shaken but my Spirit cannot be touched…though it has tried to be, I am protected by a Force much greater than any of us. And I am always reminded to never give up, no matter what! ~ to keep on fighting, keep on believing, to keep on loving. It doesn’t matter whether our gifts are accepted, received, or understood, it only matters that we follow that Guidance that shows us what to do, then wait for Divinity to do the rest…eventually, it will ALL be understood, it will all be accepted as truth. Don’t ever reject the gifts that you have been given, it is better to do as instructed and fulfill the mission, the purpose for which we are here for, than to reject them and someone else be hurt because of it.

I feel soooo much inside and have so much to share, though I try to resist, I can’t…I am always guided to go on, no matter what. I was recently given new insight, new hope, new strength to go on and I vowed not to allow anything to ever bring me back to a place of doubt a place of darkness…the walk is not always easy but I can’t give up & neither should you…so please follow your heart, no matter what, follow that guidance, no matter what, use your gifts & talents, no matter what & don’t ever, ever give up, no matter what!!!

~ From my heart to yours,

~Aixa~

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The Path Is Clear

” The Path Is Clear “                 ~ by Aixa Garcia 8-20-13 (an older article)

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~ Though the winds will blow and the Earth shall shake, or my mind is troubled & my heart be wounded…my faith shall not be broken. I know that I know that it ALL has purpose.Though my eyes can’t see what is right before me, my Spirit whispers ever so softly…”Fear not, the path is clear…simply walk” 

I wrote those words years ago and they somehow still speak to me. So many times we find ourselves in situations & circumstances, that make us think. There are times when we have no control over them, there are others where we do. There are times when we make them out to be so much more than they really are and others where we just ignore it all together. I have come to realize, out of “going through”, that everything has purpose. We always hear that being said, that everything happens for a reason and it’s so difficult to understand at the time you are faced with whatever it is you’re facing. But it’s not until time passes by that we are able to fully understand the reasons why. In everything a lesson is learned…in EVERYTHING! It’s so easy to tell someone, don’t worry, let it go, wait & see, when our human nature is to want what we want, right now! Patience is a virtue they say ~ how many of us possess it? Anxiety creeps in & then we take things into our own hands, wanting to change things that need to be changed with time, if at all. Thinking we know what’s best for us, or not even thinking at all, we create our own dilemmas, which wouldn’t be so, had we just waited on Divine timing. ALL has it’s time and it’s purpose and all WILL be the way it must ~ in the end, we end up exactly where we’re supposed to be, IF we allow it to be so. Too many resist it though; the nudging, the signs, the guidance and miss life as it was intended to be altogether… never manifesting their true potential, never tapping into all their gifts and talents, never satisfying that yearning inside to live this life to the fullest without restrictions, without regrets. We oftentimes overanalyze things or maybe worse, not even analyze them at all, our minds work overtime or not at all…finding that perfect balance where we can say “it is what it is & will be what it’s meant to be” and just be open to allow it all to flow into it’s proper place at it’s proper time…well, sometimes near impossible because WE think we know what we’re doing, WE take control and that’s when things go wrong, that’s when fear comes in. Sometimes we just want to know the answers, NOW! But what would we do, if we knew??? What could we do differently?  “The unknown is unknown for a reason ~ and the reasons will not be understood. The things that make sense to the human race are not those that are of any concern. The things that don’t…now THOSE are the ones that have all the power and only in it’s timing, will they all be revealed” (Those words came to me not long ago ~ Decipher if you can)

Sometimes we are given gifts that can feel like curses if one steps out of Spirit and drifts off into self. It’s so easy to lose ourselves, to lose our way when we lose touch of the Spirit that guides and try to walk this path on our own by following our human feelings. And although we are given hints and glimpses into the future, we cannot get there until we’re ready. ~ “Do not rush to get to the place that has not arrived. Let it arrive and you will get there” …more words that came to me which are making sense now. And as I read the words that were given long ago (the ones I started this note with) … so many things are coming together, and so I walk confidently, releasing all my fears because I’m being guided, I’m being watched over and as long as I allow it, I will never walk blindly or alone. Although I can not see what my next step is, the path is clear & it will arrive and  when it does, then I’ll be there.  And so will YOU my friend, so will YOU!!!

From my heart to yours,

~Aixa~

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