“Another Blank Page”

(sharing this older post…)

“Another Blank Page”    ~by Aixa Garcia 3-11-15

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Another blank page sits before me, I stare at it for quite a while.

The words are there, inside of me, dying to bring themselves forth but I resist, I hold back, in fear of what may be said. You see, I say tooo much sometimes, I share my heart, my thoughts, my gifts but they are not always understood. Though many confirm their helpfulness and how they have been touched in one way or another…others resist, afraid of the truth, afraid to feel, afraid to see within themselves. But even “I” resist what they may reveal…so much has already been said and sometimes I just don’t want to know. But the urge inside is much greater than me and eventually I have to give in. What is it that wants to be said? What is it that needs to be shared? If I hold back, it pains me with the thought of rejecting my gifts. But if I share, my heart is open, in the hands of the one who receives…or resists. I try to separate myself, the “human” self from feelings and emotions but it’s often difficult to do…as FEELING is part of how I receive…you see, I have a gift that Feels things, that goes deep within one’s soul, I can feel the pain in others, though they hide it behind a smile. I feel the doubt, the struggle, the pain that dwells in them deep. Maybe I feel too much but it’s part of who I am. How else could I help another? Is it so wrong to feel? To care? To give ones heart so deeply? Maybe I ask too much, maybe I expect even more. But how does one hold back from something that is in essence, out of our control? We are all here for a reason, with a purpose and a mission to fulfill. I am currently walking my journey and still learning along the way. I fall often as the path isn’t always clear but Divinity picks me up and guides me along the way. I struggle as others do and fight against adversity because we very well know…where there’s a purpose, there will always be adversity. My heart has oftentimes been broken, my world shaken but my Spirit cannot be touched…though it has tried to be, I am protected by a Force much greater than any of us. And I am always reminded to never give up, no matter what! ~ to keep on fighting, keep on believing, to keep on loving. It doesn’t matter whether our gifts are accepted, received, or understood, it only matters that we follow that Guidance that shows us what to do, then wait for Divinity to do the rest…eventually, it will ALL be understood, it will all be accepted as truth. Don’t ever reject the gifts that you have been given, it is better to do as instructed and fulfill the mission, the purpose for which we are here for, than to reject them and someone else be hurt because of it.

I feel soooo much inside and have so much to share, though I try to resist, I can’t…I am always guided to go on, no matter what. I was recently given new insight, new hope, new strength to go on and I vowed not to allow anything to ever bring me back to a place of doubt a place of darkness…the walk is not always easy but I can’t give up & neither should you…so please follow your heart, no matter what, follow that guidance, no matter what, use your gifts & talents, no matter what & don’t ever, ever give up, no matter what!!!

~ From my heart to yours,

~Aixa~

Divine Connections

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~ Enagic Global Convention ~ Las Vegas 2016
I’ve been home a couple days now, caught up on some much needed sleep, unpacked & everything has been put away but this journey has only just begun!!! Who would have known less than two months ago that I would find myself in Vegas, in a room of 4000 like-minded people, listening to their stories of success. Who would have known that my life would change from uncertainty to this KNOWING deep inside?!?! I’m sure I’ll share the stories at a later time but right now I’m savoring the moment, processing all that has been shared…you see, what many thought was just a business training convention, turned out to be sooooo much more!!! Something urged me to be there, somehow inside I knew. I believed that I would meet certain people, that connections were about to be made. I told my husband that we NEEDED to be there & plans were made. But what we experienced was more than I ever imagined. I found myself drifting, as if an out of body experience as I was living what I had imagined. I couldn’t believe it was real, to be in such close contact with such an amazing group of people…VERY successful people but with the most humble, loving & grateful hearts. Sharing their stories, advice & knowledge with us…embracing us into this Family with such open arms. What a blessing that was! The entire time was literally a Spiritual experience, as the love of God was shared so openly without shame or restrictions, confessing that it is THE only way. The faith, hope, determination, Spirituality and all things of Light & Love just ooooozed out these individuals and one couldn’t help but be moved in a special way. I am limited in words to express this all the way I would like, so much detail & yet I’m speechless, never had I encountered such a thing. Sad to say that even in church one oftentimes doesn’t see this kind of Love & Faith, I can’t put into words the things that were felt. But needed to share how grateful I am to everyone who took the time to share themselves with us, that took us to the side & spoke their words of wisdom, that held our hand & looked us in the eyes with such love & emotion, who told their stories of how they began from a time of necessity, or moment of uncertainty (as I found myself not long ago) & how they made it through with their faith, focus & determination without ever giving up despite the difficulties they encountered, those who welcomed us with open arms & a beautiful smile upon their faces, smiles from the heart ~ the kind that touches you deep inside because it is felt…sincerity cannot be masked. Now I don’t know if to blame all this on the WATER or the prayers that were made for “Divine Connections” but it is ALL connected…there is a Divine plan for each & every one of us, sometimes we are “urged”, something touches us but we hold back, afraid to take a chance. Anyone would say that this was a gamble (joining this business) when they judge from the outside, with a closed heart (as many in this business/Family have encountered) but if we don’t take a chance, we will never experience ALL that is meant to be ours, true health, true financial freedom & true peace of mind. To be totally honest with you, even if not a single machine is sold, I already feel that I have hit the jackpot…the changes that have occurred in my body & that of my family in the short time that we have drank the water religiously and the Love that we’ve received from our new-found family …are priceless!!! One can have all the riches in the world but if one does not have health, Love or God, one has nothing…
From my heart to yours,
~Aixa~
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